Our devotions together (Thomas and myself) were quite on target the next morning after my last post. The book we are working on together right now is titled "15 Minute Devotions for Couples" by Bob and Emilie Barnes.
The story goes like this ... at first I saw God as an observer of my life, and a judge. Then I noticed more that we were on a bike ride, but it was a tandem bike ride with God in the back helping to pedal. But at some point, we switched places, I'm not sure when He suggested the change. "When I had control, I knew the way. It was rather boring, but predictable. It was the shortest distance between two points. But when He took the lead, He knew delightful long cuts, up mountains, through rocky places, and at breakneck speeds! It was all I could do to hang on! Even though it looked like madness, He said, 'Pedal!' I worried and was anxious and asked 'Where are you taking me?' He laughed and didn't answer. I started to learn to trust ... I did not trust Him in control of my life at first. I thought He'd wreck it. But He knows bike secrets. He knows how to make it bend to take sharp corners, jump to clear high rocks, fly to shorten scary passages. And I'm learning to shut up and pedal. ... And when I'm sure I just can't do it any more, He smiles and says 'Pedal!'"
It's a very good message for every one, but especially for us few lucky ones that face infertility. It was a blessing to see such an on point message. I was happy to see such a clear message that I could apply to my life and now I am trying more to let God lead and to trust in Him ... and that is not only a good thing, but a great and wonderful thing.
The scripture of course that goes with this is Proverbs 3:5-6 - "Trust is the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."